Forgiven Today

Blog Post by Jessica White Davis

I forgave you today. You probably didn’t even notice. You had no idea how my heart has carried the weight of losing your friendship. How I’ve longed for another long talk. How I’ve missed laughing about nothing and talking about everything. You didn’t know my baby girl turned 10. Or that she told someone recently we aren’t friends anymore. I didn’t know she knew. But of course she did because you mattered to her too and she feels your absence.

I spent so much time trying to figure out how to fix this. How to make you hear me. How to make the friendship mean as much to you as it did to me. But then… I stopped. I stopped trying to make sense of something that will never make sense. I stopped trying to force my own way. I stopped praying for a miracle. I did the one thing left to do and chose to forgive. I repented again for my part. I asked God to heal my heart. And yours. I asked Holy Spirit to be the comforter. I asked Jesus to heal the place inside of me that has feared friendship. And the part that was waiting to be abandoned. I repented for the pain I have caused others because of that fear.

Prayer

I pray God has healed your heart. I pray that you have peace. I pray you are surrounded by people who make you feel loved and accepted. I pray you have found it in your heart to forgive me. Part of me prays that maybe you did notice today; that just maybe your shoulders are lighter and your heart is at rest. Forgiveness and release are some of the most beautiful gifts you can give… and receive. In Jesus’ name. AMEN.

Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.

Ephesians 4:32